GOOOOD news!!!

YESSSSSS!!! i PASSED my supp!! woooo~ XD

at first i thought this supp would be a disaster and another failure of my life yet i've learned to be stronger and know how to let go and let God. i experienced the presence of God that He is really with me and giving me strength and that His will is always good, His work is unpredictable!! I felt so stressed and worried when i first know about my supp, i cried, i questioned, i despaired. After a good chat with pastor Li Sze, i realized that maybe the problem is with me, not God, not anyone else. maybe i didn't pray with a proper heart, i prayed because i want to pass and i'm "ordering" God to do so. i realized this problem and i started to reflect my own attitude when i'm praying to God. i prayed and prayed continually about it and those were the times that i learnt to come to God sincerely and whole heartedly, only when i am in deep sorrow and in desperate need of God's guidance. i could feel that God is with me after i've committed everything unto His hand. i'm not stressed at all and i actually studied for that paper light heartedly. God is with us all the time! Seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened for you!!

Due to this supp paper, i've come to realize that i have alot of caring friends around me, giving me support and care! receiving calls and text messages giving me support during my exam preparation and before my exam. thank you guys so so much!!! i was really touched and felt so warm when i receive all those caring messages and calls. you guys are the best!!! and you know who you are!! *wink* :)

Thank God for giving me a PASS for this supp paper......
Thank God for providing so many angels around me when i need comfort and support......
Thank God for everything......
Thank you all my beloved friends!!! ^^

真矛盾！

成绩啊成绩，你到底几时要出？我从星期5一考完试就一直在等你了！！！刚刚一起身，第一件做的事就是去check成绩！可是还没有出，很担心啊！不知道考得怎么样 >"<

就连刚刚要来自己的b部落格时，都不知不觉上到学校oasis的网页！啊~~~救命！好想知道自己考得好不好...可是又害怕自己考不好 :(

真矛盾！

Thought of the Day

"Apologizing doesn't always mean that you are wrong and the other person is right. It just means that you value your relationship more than your damn ego."

如鹰展翅上腾

accidentally found this song and i'm so in love with it now. gonna song lead this when i have chance in my next singspiration session!! he he he he~~ it's also a very encouraging song!! i found this in the middle of my study! i believe that God will give me strength to conquer all these problems!! thank you Lord!! :)

每当环境的冲击像海啸一样的临到的时候，你要将眼目单单注视你的神，
因为这正是神新的工作季节的开始。
你要等候，因为神会将得胜的意念放在你的心中，
你要展翅，因为神会将机会摆在你的面前，
唯有祂，能够带领你飞越风暴，重新翱翔~

♥

so sien leh. everyone's having holidays while i still have to prepare for my supp paper due on friday 10am. lol. sigh, nvm lar, as long as i pass this exam then i'm happy. God please help me~ and please pray for me too :)

wanted to change my desktop background just now. was trying to look for a photo of me and mum together. but sadly, i realised that i haven't been taking much photos with mum lately! i really miss her so so much! :( while looking through those photos, even though only a few, "water" started to come out of my eyes uncontrollably again. sigh.. how i wish she is just right beside me now! so that i can hug her tight tight~ :(

i guess i will have to get used to this kinda life from now on. as my brother's married in kuching, plus my nephew will be coming into our family shortly, means my mum will have to help out in taking care of him maybe?? so she won't be in perth with me for the whole year long like how she used to be anymore! *sobs* sigh, i'm really a mummy girl ey? hahaha.. still can't live without mum :( can't wait till december to go back and see mum!! hehe..

I pray that God will be with me, give me strength so that I can be tough and strong! and be more independent!! God may You also be with my mum while she's in kuching, give her good health and happiness everyday. May You guide our relationship even though we are far apart. pray all these in Jesus name, Amen!

MISS YOU~ ♥

好了，该好好读书了!

今天是星期四

我真的很想念这个人。虽然在一起的时候总是斗嘴，惹他生气。可是心里清楚知道他是多么的疼爱我！那个人就是我最亲爱的妈妈啦！！昨晚跟他通电话的时候，聊了很多，眼泪也鸡婆地流了出来 =.=

妈妈人现在在民都鲁的了，准备参加拔凯的婚礼~ 刚刚Albert Ting还要特地msg我，告诉我我妈妈在民都鲁了，还要5个人去接载他！好大牌哦！朋友们！干得好！好好招待黄妈妈哦！不然你们就惨了！（这里指的是拔凯，Albert Ting和Nancy Goh!!!) 哈哈~ 你们真好，有婚礼可以参加，我真的很想去好好的整整新郎！出很多很多的难题给兄弟团~ 嘿嘿~ 不过没关系啦~ 明天就是老板（我平常都喜欢称拔凯为老板~）的重大日子了！想必他应该是很紧张又兴奋又期待的咯！愿神掌管他们的婚礼，一切都顺顺利利~ ^^

今天突然阿姨不请自来，登门造访，还得我一整天肚子都很不舒服。由于今天在post office做工的时候，站了一整天，现在的肚子更痛了！酸酸的！唉~女人真命苦，没受伤却还要承受疼痛。男人们呀，你们可要好好地疼惜你们身边的女人们哦！知道吗！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~~

今晚要早点休息了，突然感觉头晕晕的。惨了，明天还要做工的！！！神啊，赐给我有好的睡眠，补充体力，好好休息！晚安~~

Youth Camp 07/07 - 10/07

前几天都过得很充实。参加了教会举办的一年一度青少年生活营。感谢主，在当中我学习到很多，灵命也再次被更新。和大家的关系也变得比以前好。现在有点想念营会里的生活了~

印象最深刻的是spiritual training的时候，有一站是要我们想象如果我们的生命只剩下最后一刻，我们想要和谁说话，说些什么？都写在一张白纸上。写好了以后，就要到另外一个地方，牧师为我们准备了一个类似棺材的东西。当牧师问我：你准备好了没有？那一刻，我心里有很多的问号和挣扎，我知道我还有很多事情还没有做。在躺进去的那一刻，眼泪不禁夺眶而流，我不断祈求上帝的原谅，我没有脸见上帝，因为在我活着的日子里，没有好好的来为主而活，没有做好基督徒的本分。而我最最最遗憾的事情就是还没有带领我家人来信主。如果我真的死了，就代表我永远和他们分开了。祈求上帝自己感动他们，让他们接受主，这样我们以后必定会在天国相聚的。幸好这一切都不是真的。求神帮助，希望他带领我，使用我来改变我的家人，改变我身边的每一个人 :)

今年的营会主题是：放手，让上帝掌权！在营会之前，我承认，我心里有些烦恼和问题捆绑着我。但愿上帝真的与我同在，帮助我，让我知道如何真正的做到完全放手，让上帝来掌权！借着祷告和灵修来找寻上帝在我身上的旨意。求神帮助！阿门。

今天获益良多!! ^^

刚从诗班练唱回来。我们澳西教会为了8月16，17，18日的唐崇荣牧师布道会组织了一个联合诗班，现在开始每个星期天晚上在蒙恩堂都会有练习。指挥是李运生老师。大家可以去google李运生和唐崇荣牧师这两个人，相信你们都会对他们的恩赐而震惊的！

我超喜欢那个诗班的！老师超厉害带领和教导，而且诗班成员们的level也比我们教会的高一点点。毕竟有比较多的精英来自不同的教会嘛，而且李运生老师本身带的诗班就已经比普通的有standard吧？？哈哈！！在练唱的时候，第一次觉得自己也可以唱得那么好，可以用诗歌大大声的赞美上帝！感谢主让我有这个学习的机会，真的学到了很多东西！也感受到大家透过耶稣基督，虽然不认识彼此，但却有着一样的目的而聚集在一起赞美上帝！

很期待8月的布道会！可惜我家妈妈没有机会出席了！唉~ 希望会有人录制CD！嘿嘿~~

期待下个礼拜的练唱了！呼呼~~~ XD

Take Care!

其实很不喜欢送人离开的感觉。虽然不是永远的再见。。

开车回家的路上，想到好朋友一辈子一次的开心，都不能一起分享的时候，心里一阵心酸，鼻子也跟着酸了起来。哈哈！

朋友，一路走好！我们一个月后见！主佑！


永远的祝福~ ：）